Listening to this song makes me cry. Cry for joy, to know how lucky I am and how valuable I am in My Father’s eyes.

Hebrews 13:5-6
I will never leave you nor forsake you.

Romans 8:35
Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?

2 Corinthians 12:9
“My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.

2 Corinthians 12:10
Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong.

Never Once
by Matt Redman


I remember when I was young I liked to write a letter to God. I would put it in the envelope and seal it and put in the box. I think I was an introverted person. I didn’t trust people that much in terms of sharing what I felt. It was hard for me to find a best friend, a person I could share my deepest feeling. I have parents, sisters and a brother who love me dearly but sometimes there’s a certain thing you wouldn’t want to share with them. The only friend I had back then was God.

Every night, before bed, I wrote God a note. I shared with him everything I felt, my happiness, sadness, loneliness, emptiness, hurt of being rejected, my anger, my hopes and dreams. Sometimes I just wrote a note to let Him know how much He meant to me.

Every time I wrote a letter to God, I found peace inside me. He’s the only faithful person I could trust. He never judged me nor hurt me. He always listened and looked at me with love. Many times I made mistakes and I would come to Him at night, cried and asked forgiveness.

I couldn’t count how many times I have disappointed Him but there’s not one day that He left me. He always puts the pieces back together and tells me

“I forgive you Suzana and I love you so much, Let’s try again okay.”

Imagine this, when you were young (the age of 4-7), you learned how to ride bicycle. You fell down and you got up. You fell down again, got hurt, and you got up again. You never stopped. Your dad looked and watched over you from far away and shouted with love.

“Try again son, try again! You will master it one day.”

When you were bleeding he ran toward you and put a bandage on your wound and carried you home. He was always there to comfort you and not once did he say to you “Stupid boy! Go learn yourself! I’m tired of teaching you! You just don’t get it!”

If our worldly father has that much love toward their children, can you imagine how great the love of our “Heavenly Father” is for us. He knows us better because He who created us. We are His children who need comfort and love from time to time.

I haven’t written a letter to God since I got married almost 8 years ago, so today I want to send Him a lil note:


It’s been a long time since my last letter to you.
I know I didn’t write you a lot since my last letter because you are here with me,
and we are talking a lot more in the spirit now.

Thank you so much for sending me a best friend, my husband. I share things I couldn’t share in the past with him now. You’ll be happy to hear this, he does his part right. He’s such a good listener and patient with the fact that I am a lil’ crazy person who talks too much. You’ve sent the right one for me, Lord :)

Father, I just want to say THANK YOU SO MUCH for all you’ve done for me. Look how far we’ve come!
Thank you for all the blessings and grace that you have been pouring on me since I was born.

Thank you for holding me, comforting and carrying me in your arms, when I was in sorrow, when I was in pain, when I was sad, when I was hurt,  where life seemed so difficult and the journey so rough you always remained there for me, faithfully.

You watch over me when I wake up, when I walk, when I fall, when I almost give up. You never give up hope in me. You always let me know that you are near.

Thank you for my husband, parents, family and friends. Thank you for protecting them, and be with them in any circumstances in their life.  I love them so much and I know you love them too the way you love me.

It’s too much for me to say.  I know that I can’t repay everything back. You’ve been giving me a lot more than I can ask, imagine and pray. I love you so much too and I can’t be separated from you because apart from you I’m just NOTHING.

Thank you for being so faithful to me and for keeping up with me.
I know I hurt you so many times and you never take your love one bit away from me.

Thank you Father for being my Father. I can’t wait to meet you face to face and get a real hug from you.
Promise to hug Emory too Father, he’ll be jealous if you don’t ;)

Your daughter


  1. Joanne Choi says:

    Wow a faith blog! Thank you so much for posting this. My favorite verse is Romans 5:3-5 ♥ Sometimes I forget that I am his hands.


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