This morning on the way to work I was listening to a song called “Mama” by II Divo.
Tears came to my eyes. I miss my mom. Just thinking about how much we’ve taken for granted from our mom.

Have you ever said “thank you so much” to her for all she’s done? The sacrifice you can’t count.
You can feel it in the lyrics from the song.

Mama- I Love You

Mama thank you for who I am, thank you for all the things I’m not
Forgive me for the words unsaid for the times I forgot
Mama remember all my life you showed me love, you sacrificed
Think of those young and early days how I’ve changed along the way
(Along the way)

And I know you believed and I know you had dreams
And I’m sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, yeah I miss you

Mama forgive the times you cried, forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused and I’ve been wrong dry your eyes
Dry your eyes

‘Cause I know you believed and I know you had dreams
And I’m sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am because of your truth
And I miss you, I miss you

Mama I hope this makes you smile, I hope you’re happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made how I’ve changed along the way
‘Cause I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you , mama

Sometimes I do believe that God talks to you in so many ways and speaks to you through your dreams, for example. When I checked an old post a few weeks ago, this article, “Do Not Wait Until Tomorrow” caught my attention. I remember I wrote this article a few years back. Looking back to the dream and what has happened in the past few months made me realize the dream has become reality.

Long story short. I had this dream about my mom leaving me a couple of times, on and on, within 4 years. The same vivid dreams that made me cry every time I woke up.

My mom had been sick for the last 2 year s. Last year my dad called me to ask if I want to come home to see my mom for one last time. I decided to go home despite the fact that my husband and I just traveled back home (halfway across the globe to Jakarta, Indonesia) the year before. I packed my bag, got a ticket within 2 days and the next thing you know I’m on a plane back home.

When I saw her, I couldn’t imagine where my mom got such strength. It must be a miracle that she woke up that morning on the day I got to Jakarta. Considering that she’d been on her death bed for about 3 months. She had no energy since she hadn’t been eating since April. I was so happy to see the ray of light in her. She would be healed and recover. But one thing rang really strange about it. She seemed like she had just come from different world. My dad was kind enough to let me sleep next to her for 2 weeks, so I could spent time with her after being separated so long.

A few times early in the mornings, I woke and found my mom just sitting quietly on her bed. I asked her, what she was thinking. She told me that she felt weird, she couldn’t fathom what was happening. She felt like she just woke up from a mysterious deep sleep.

Oh, what a great time I had with my mom. It was the most wonderful 2 weeks I’ve ever had in my life. I spent most of my time by her side, walked with her, fed her, bathed her, kissed her a thousand times. Thank you Lord for such a wonderful time, a wonderful opportunity you gave me. I prayed really hard the day before I flew to Jakarta that God would give me a chance to see her alive. That He wouldn’t take her before I got there. And the Lord granted it to me. He altered His plan for me.

On the day I went back to the US, I called my dad and he told me my mom was sick again. I was so sad to hear that but ready for the worst. A week later on August 2011, my mom went home to her Father in heaven. Thank you Mama for everything. You will always be missed. I love you Mama –